ultra wallflower

so i've been complaining about being bored with my life and L introduced me to a new site: www.meetup.com
its basically a site that allows people to meet up and enjoy a common interest together. i've been playing on the site for hours already and i've found people to watch movies with, play scrabble with and speak Spanish with...here's the thing...
i don't know when i became so shy. seriously. there is a meetup tonight at athen's pizza in decatur (have been there with S before. LOVE their food) but i'm scared! yes, SCARED. i'm not scared that i won't be able to speak Spanish. i can't do it as well as i used to, but i can do it. i think its mostly the meeting new people part. when did i become such a WUSS?!
i RSVPed yes, but i'm nervous. really really nervous. maybe i have social anxiety disorder... but i have to do this for myself. otherwise i'll forever sit in my house watching my sex and the city dvds, thinking about the same losers i have been for the past several years. don't i owe this to myself? YES!