soaps

i'm at home today. i needed to regroup. compose. get better. think.
my background noise while i work is ABC soaps. All My Children, One Life to Live, General Hospital....
this shit is crazy.... my question is...how serious are these "actors" about their "craft". when they win an emmy are they happy? or do they realize how corny they are? i mean one of the storylines today was man loses 4 years worth of memories, when he remembers, he's in love with the wrong girl....or how about doctor falls in love with hooker....or how about mother and daughter both with multiple personality disorder? are they for real? they can't be!
i used to watch general hospital religiously in high school. i stopped watching when an alien (yes an extraterrestrial!) came to town.