atlanta family

so generally, i'd call yesterday the worst day of my entire life.
okay, thats excessive (props to KM). it wasn't the worst, but top 5 AT LEAST....
if i ever doubted who my real friends are, i have yesterday to show me those who love me will stick by me no matter what.
i clearly have issues. and my closest friends know that.
i don't always reveal whats going on in this crazy head of mine and i only truly confide in a few, but i know those who really care about me, care about me in spite of everything. lately i've been sucking the life out of my friends with the constant despair i'm feeling. believe me, i'm sick of it too. but my best friends - they listen and don't judge and if they judge, i know its because they only want the best for me.
as badly as i wanted to go home after work and take a bath or go to bed, C wouldn't let me. She made me go to the gym. It's good to have a friend you are scared of ;) and afterwards, we went to Publix then to hers to christen the new deck furniture R had put together. there were a few times during the evening when i wanted to burst into tears, but no...she wouldn't let me... so they sat with me, talking and drinking until we were all so tired we had to crash.
this is what good friends do. and there are no words to convey how grateful i am.
thanks, H's. loca lola loves you back.